Every broom on this bracelet is hanging still. Not one of them is going anywhere yet.
That is the moment the design is sitting in, and it is a familiar one. The bag is packed and the door is not open. The application is written and not sent. The decision is made in your head and has not yet left your mouth. Everything is ready and you are standing in the hallway with your coat on, finding one more thing to check.
The gap between ready and gone is almost always longer than it needs to be, and almost never about preparation. You are not waiting for more information. You are waiting to feel certain, which is a thing that tends to arrive after you leave rather than before, if it arrives at all.
Here is what is true though: you have done this before. Every trip you have taken, every job you have started, every conversation you were dreading and had anyway, all of them began with you being exactly this unsure and going regardless. You have a long history of leaving before you felt ready and landing fine.
You are allowed to go now. Not once you have thought it through twice more, not after one more week of turning it over. Now, with the nerves still on, exactly as you are.
